~Four Fast & F***ed up Read Stars for Inferno by Yolanda Olsen~

I haven't fallen down in days. 

That may not seem like much, but my God, it's such an accomplishment. Being made to stand and kneel repeatedly while he performs his rituals is exhausting and I'm pretty sure that the welts on the bottom of my feet are ready to pop. 

My knees. They're bruised, covered in dry blood and cuts; but I won't fall down. I can't fall down; that means he wins again and I get put down in the oubliette.

Being in the dark never scared me, being alone was something I used to cherish until he took me. 

I just want to find the light now. I want to find the warm place that he tells me so much about; the place where he says all of this pain will make sense. 

I won't fall down again.

I can't.

Not before I find my peace in the light. I have to do it soon because I'm not sure how much more I can take. 

~My Review~(contains vulgarity)

The best way I can describe this book to you is that it was a very fast and fucked up read!  Think along the lines of true crime and serial killer Eddie Lee Sexton (in some ways).  Honestly if you can handle true crime and you don't have any problems with sick, twisted and horrible behavior then you can handle reading this book.  If you can't handle any of the above along with incest, animal abuse, etc. then please don't read this book and leave a bad review because of such things.  It is not for everyone!!!  

You will loathe Pater, you will say to yourself, incessantly, what a sick mother fucker!!!  You won't like the things you read about and you won't like the way it ends, but once you start reading you won't be able to stop!  I finished this book in two days, which is a record for me.  I could not stop reading because I wanted to see what was going to happen next!  Yolanda definitely knows how to keep you turning those pages.  

Quotes from the book "Words-the ones spoken to inflict harm-will stay with you much longer than any scar worn on the skin."~Jocelyn

"I'll either break your mind or I'll break your spirit, but rest assured that I will fucking break you"~Pater

"When your will is no longer your own and you're forced to survive by any means dictated to you , you do what you must"~Jocelyn

"This will come to an end someday soon and one of us won't survive.  The only question left to answer between us is who."~Jocelyn

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